Pains Past

The past haunts me like ghost with a knife ready to stab, slice, cut, rend, and tear flesh from my body. To cut my throat to see the blood flow free and laugh as it stands before me. "I TOLD YOU" Its screams. "Was four pains not enough! Do you need more. Is that it YOU CURSED FUCK!" Shaking its weapon in it blood drenched hand. "They all leave. EVERY ONE.. BECAUSE OF YOU" I try to fight but all i do is sob and tell it, its wrong this time. Its not the same I'm not what i what used to be. It laughs and steps closer. My past in its hand shining so brightly that my eyes burn and sear with pain. "They leave you because they know your nothing" Pounding my fists into the wall in crimson seeps from my knuckles as bone shatters and splinters through my flesh. "You will be left like the cursed fuck you are with your throat slit again and looking for that way out only I can give you!" It hurts so badly knowing that i can't run from my past but only hope that my past will one day be gone and i will be able to enjoy my new life with my new world. My past stand there almost as if in defeat. "I warn you this last time. If it happens again. I will be all you have." It wont happen again. It not the same as the others. She means what she says and she is my new world willing to let me be me. But if i find my self with my throat slit again at least i will know. She loved me for me as i love her for her. Thank you my mate, my love. You are my today and now. I love you.